July is here. Dog days are here. Summer is here, and I’m in a routine of busy, busy days again. When I got mono 3 weeks ago I slowed way down, but here I am constantly on the go again. I have a lot of plans for the future. Moving to LA, graduating college, becoming a reiki master and personal health coach. Most importantly however is my spiritual routine, consistent acts of self care. Consistent yoga, readings, slowing down, entering this moment. This moment is where life is happening. Life isn’t in the future or the past; it’s all happening now and I’d like to be present for it all. Always grateful that I can turn this moment into a moment of bliss. It’s all up to me. I’m responsible for the peace I feel at any given moment.I’ve been aware of my mind lately, and man has it been trying to sabotage me and my joy. It wants me to compare myself to others. How silly it is to want to be any way other than the how I am. How could I forget that everything about me is truly perfect? Nothing about us, our physical bodies, our temperament, our families and the people in our lives, is by accident. I forgot that everything is perfectly constructed and essential to my plan here on Earth.The mind likes to create drama and suffering, and if we’re not aware that it’s all in our minds, then we believe it and it becomes reality (for us). Every little trigger is teaching us something. And when we’re triggered we have to practice anchoring back into the now; the state of awareness. This state allows us to see the possibilities of life, that this is not all there is, that our plan is so much greater than being born into the physical realm and dying, that our soul lives on eternally, that every opportunity presents itself so that we can reduce the negative karma in our lives.I’m learning that I will have to come to this realization again and again. Life is about coming back, returning to our true selves, our true journey, our true calling. My mind expands when I just think about it. Everything feels infinite and all the drama feels so, so trivial. When we laugh at the mind for trying to reel us into the drama and problems, it loses power over us instantly and life feels lighter than before.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XR7mjtoAdpM Watching this video felt like hearing someone tell me things about myself that even I didn’t know. But I know that it relates to me because deep down I know that he is speaking about the person I truly am…the person I was before society told me otherwise…the person I was before anyone told me to be someone else. This video speaks to my soul, and I hope it can do the same for you.
You are not the person you were yesterday. You are not that person, no matter that the people around you still believe that you are. No matter that you didn’t have a chance to apologize to them. No matter that they didn’t accept your apology. No matter that you still re-play what went wrong and what you “should” have done. Stop thinking about what you should have done. There is absolutely no way to go back in time. Absolutely none. Stop trying to keep the past alive because you think that you deserve to feel guilty. You deserve peace. Forgive yourself for what happened, because it was always going to happen that way. You want the lessons that you learned, but not the experience. But who would you be today without that experience? Realize that you have changed, that you are always changing. Allow yourself room to grow. Take the lessons that you’ve learned with you, and keep moving forward.
The idea of letting someone go because you care about them has been a foreign idea to me..something I could never have understood, until now. Sometimes the best thing to do for someone and for your own well being is to let that person go. By “letting someone go”, I mean ceasing contact with them for some time..maybe forever. Once they are not in your life, you will be able to feel the impact they had on you. You will be able to see the situation in a new light. This may take a long, long time. This is what I struggle with: waiting. When I know that I have to wait for something to happen, or not happen.. I get anxious, because life is unpredictable, and I always think to myself, “Why not now???”. But “now” is not always the answer. In this case, staying present in the now is vitally important so that you don’t feel as though you’re waiting. Something also important to realize is that you can’t force an epiphany about a situation..you can’t force growth, or understanding, or feeling a different way about something, because that old feeling will always be there until you acknowledge it fully. And when you acknowledge it fully, then will there be room for understanding and maturity. But it takes time. It takes time. All you can do is focus on right now, and accept what you can’t change. Accept it, and let go.
Writing blog entries is scary because I think a lot about how other people are going to perceive what I’m writing. And I could always copy what I’ve already written in my journal, but I always would rather focus on the present than on the past. Right now, I want to make it a point to post more entries. I want to free myself from the burden of perfection and write without really thinking about what I’m writing. Sometimes, that is the best writing. It’s the most therapeutic writing, in my opinion. If someone likes what he or she is reading, then that’s great. If no one likes what I’m writing, that’s okay too. This blog is for me to document my life and my ever-changing perspectives on things. If I’m the only one happy with what I’ve created on here, then I’m perfectly okay with that.
It’s been a while!! I started college in September and have been adjusting to life here! Here are some of my experiences and tips:
Push yourself to start healthy habits. The first month is the hardest because it is all overwhelming and you’ve become responsible for a lot in a short amount of time. Remember the importance of your health on your life in the long term. Exercising and eating the right foods can also be a major help with de-stressing! I usually start my workout with a run around the outdoor track or on the treadmill for however long I can (usually 10 minutes at least) then I do strength training either in the gym or outside on a grassy field. I’ve been doing squats, lunges, planks, side planks, burpees, jumping jacks, and mountain climbers. I’ll do 10 of each (on each side) then repeat. Although this was a great workout, I really wanted a workout plan that focused on different parts of the body each day, so I found a YouTube video that really helped me create my own plan. I want to focus on toning my body, so in that case the video recommended doing 8-11 reps of each exercise and 3-4 sets of those reps, with a 1-2 minute rest between sets. So for example, I would do 10 squats, wait 1 minute, then repeat 2 or 3 more times. During that 1 minute I could do another workout just to keep moving.
Legs and butt workouts: Squats, lunges, bridge raises, weighted steps, stairs, 30 sec. jog- 30 sec. sprint
Chest & biceps: push-ups, weighted chest fly, weighted bicep curls, walking plank
Back & triceps: Burpees, weighted deadlift, bent over row, single arm row, pull ups, tricep dips
Shoulder & core: steady run, weighted shoulder press, weighted clean & press, hill climbers, Russian twists, side crunches, plank, side plank
I still don’t know how to do all of these workouts are, but I’ll eventually become more of an expert 🙂
I’ve been fully vegan since July? I think? Anyways, I’m definitely never going back. It’s easy to see how people could try veganism out then go back to meat and dairy. They probably jump into it instead of slowly adjusting to the lifestyle. I gave up meat in April before giving up eggs (I already avoided dairy because it upset my stomach). Another reason why someone could “fail” at veganism could be lack of research on it. If you don’t have a solid opinion, it’s hard to be passionate about something. Reading Starch Solution educated me about the health benefits of veganism, more specifically high carb, low fat veganism, and watching videos and seeing pictures of animal cruelty in factory farms reinforced my passion against eating these animals and contributing to their suffering. Another great idea for anyone new to veganism is to watch YouTube videos, mainly “what I eat in a day” ones, to get an idea of the amount you should be eating to get enough calories into your diet. The amount of grains, fruits, and vegetables you should eat will probably seem abnormal at first, but it takes a lot more of these foods than you’re used to to satiate hunger. Plus these youtubers have created such a positive community of vegans to return to every day whenever I feel isolated.
Another tip is to experiment, and don’t be discouraged! Listen to your body. If you don’t eat enough carbs, you will crave unhealthy, fatty foods. Personally, I eat a low fat diet because it cleared my skin of acne.
I’m sad that July is almost over but this is honestly the best time because summer’s in full bloom! I feel creative this time of year; It’s when I have time to read, try different exercises, listen to new music, try new food and enjoy life fully. It’s easy to get stuck in the habit of watching TV all day, staying up too late at night, eating whatever junk food is in the kitchen, etc. All of these habits make me feel groggy and tired. Getting in the habit of taking care of my body, reading inspirational books and watching inspiring movies, brings me deep satisfaction. I feel like I have purpose in life; I’m motivated to volunteer, learn more about the causes I care about, try something new…. When I do these things, I feel alive.
I never thought that I would come across a diet that encourages people to eat mainly carbohydrates! I’ve been reading The Starch Solution by Dr. McDougall; it’s about the science behind why starches are good for the body and why meat and dairy should be eliminated from our diet. I honestly feel so good when I follow this diet. The fact that we are depleting the world’s resources by eating animals scares me. The judgement I know I will get from people when I tell them I eat this way kinda scares me, too. But this book is just what I needed, because it’s designed to prepare vegans to answer questions about why they eat and avoid eating what they do.
My eating habits have become a lot simpler lately, which really has helped me not to focus so much on foodfoodfood, which is nice for a change. Throughout life I think we go through stages of focus. School, work, cooking, eating, sleeping, reading, watching movies or whatever hobbies we do. We pick one thing and spend most of our time on it. It’s hard to keep a balanced life where we are centered on multiple things equally. We always end up neglecting something. I always end up neglecting cleaning my room, focusing on my soul, and stretching out my body. Without a clean environment, it’s hard to focus on my spiritual life, which stretching and yoga helps me do. Hmm.
I’ve recently been reading the book Raw Transformation by Wendy Rudell to gain more knowledge about raw food, food combination, and cleansing the body. It inspired me to learn more about breathing, which might seem weird, but we take breathing for granted sometimes and don’t realize when we’re actually holding our breath!
Sprouting is another topic that the author draws upon that I never thought of trying before. First you soak the seeds (sunflower, sesame, Brazil nuts, almonds, etc.), then place them in a sprouting jar or tray for a certain amount of time. You can also omit sprouting and just soak the seeds. Soaking seeds allows the enzymes to activate, increases the nutrient content, and allows for easier digestion.
I’m going to try soaking and sprouting, and update how it goes 😁